on the internets

...a photobooth picture turned on it's side
with a caption that read,
"this girl has messed me up sideways"
and i think it's one of the most
romantic things i have ever heard.

needless to say,
i'm quite jealous.

it's 12:51am
and i forgot my favorite show was on.
they say it's going to get in the teens tonight
and i really hope this cough i have isn't staying around.

i've been okay.
in case you're wondering.

i haven't listened to this cd in years
and i can say, with full honesty,
that i've been thinking about your more this winter
than i have in five.
i think the main reason i've avoided these songs
is the same reason that you were the last
good thing i can remember.
it's cold outside and i hate the fact
that i'm stuck in doors thinking about
all the possibilites of you.
you don't really exist if you're not here.
i hope you're okay
cos i have been wondering.
maybe you were my first love.
i don't even know what that means.

and she said i shouldn't be so pessimistic about love
but i don't believe anymore.

somewhere along the lines i got lost.
now i'm just trying to find my way back.
i am constantly surrouned by people
but i don't even know how to talk
unless it's about bullshit.
like this entire post.
except not.

i miss you.

and you might think you know who i'm talking about
but i can assure you it's not him.
this goes back farther than that.

i think this vacation is coming at a perfect time.