Monday, October 27, 2008

for the record

for the record,
i am not a convinent store.
i will not stay lit,
with welcome mats,
and fresh coffee,
just waiting, patiently for your arrival.

i'm through keeping these doors open
and leaving the light on for you.
come knock on my door
when you're willing to open up for me.

i'm losing grip of you.
but i don't know if i'm even holding on anymore
or just letting you slip thru my fingers
because i'm tired of the struggle.

Sunday, October 26, 2008

pause the tragic ending

is it just me
or have i been on repeat for
the past three years now?

jesus christ.
the truth stings a little.

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

oh silly kid, he likes tricks.

so i just spent the last 7 minutes of my life
regretting the fact that in high school
i never realized how amazing this boy was.
maybe, deep down i knew but
already there were others who
were standing in the way
while he was just standing beside me.

so 7 minutes ago
i lurked the hell out of you.

and well..
your gay now.
AND EVERYTHING MAKES SENSE.








my problem isn't that i like the wrong guys.
my problem is 5:1 they turn out to be gay.
or bi.
or confused.
or into my friends.
(who happen to be other gay boys.)



i have to go now.

Monday, October 13, 2008

happy birthday lindsay snow.



so apparently all my friends played a mean girls prank on me
and i was the only one who dressed up like an indian
for lindsay's cowboy/indian birthday party.

....

luckily for me, i'm fucking awesome.
this week i'll be going to richmond
for jyu's birthday blowout
and the next week i'll be in nc
for the east coast star party.
so if you're stalking me
go fill up your gas tank (it's only $2.85 by my house)
and prepare to let the good times roll.


i really wanted to go to look alive last night.
how disappointing that work gets in the way of my good times.

Tuesday, October 7, 2008

pg. 436-437

Do not faint in September
or you will wake up in a dead city.
If someone dies in October
do not sweep the house for three days
or the rest of you will go.
Also do not step on a boy's head
for the devil will enter your ears
like music.
- anne sexton.

a lady my mom plays poker with had a heart attack and died.
i find myself unable to show sympathy for strangers
and maybe that's the problem with this world.

i spent the past weekend intoxicated.
(big shocker.)
kevin and i went to dc.
i fell down and ripped open my knee
after dancing and kissing durning chromeo.
meanwhile kevin was emptying his fluids in my car
and reading my diaries for fun.
...typical.

Wednesday, October 1, 2008

mika! mika!

my dog is like the cutest thing ever.