spring in around the corner.

jenn so azn (12:03:35 AM): im excited to see where this goes
lost tothe trend (12:04:07 AM): it'll blossom into a love worth fighting for

safe to say i'm crushing so hard.
&& then sometime later.

lost tothe trend (12:26:04 AM): wow
lost tothe trend (12:26:13 AM): you hung out with a celebo on the webz
lost tothe trend (12:26:16 AM): irl
jenn so azn (12:26:22 AM): lol

let the good come in.

so i made a broadcast to the universe;
i put myself on blast.
i'm ready for the good to come in.
i put the former ghosts to rest.
i let truth spill from my lips
i let them go.
&& now i feel totally free.


last night i met a southern accent
i couldn't stop listening to.
and i think i've found a friend
who is here for more than just fairweather.
it's safe to say
i'm starting to be really happy.

there's so much good to be had.

don't go with him.

jenn so azn (12:48:07 AM): i need like how to be a girl and get a guy 101
specialfx350 (12:48:19 AM): they probably sell that in barnes and noble
specialfx350 (12:48:25 AM): or just check google :p


ive got half a page of this paper to write
and well, i've run out of words.

i'll try to stay awake over the phone so i can tell the truth.

i don't feel like getting dressed today
i just want to call you up
and skip out on my obligations
and drag you out to drink green beer with me
because honestly, i've never had green beer
and although it doesn't look that appetizing
i feel like i'm missing out
and being the only one who hasn't seen twilight
or any of the star wars movies
has left me feeling like i'm sitting on
the damaged goods shelf at farm fresh
and i just keep hoping someone picks me up
for a closer examination and reads
that i'm still good.
all this is me babbling because
i don't feel like getting dressed today.
i'd rather do a million things
like avoid the rain
and make a youtube video of me lip syncing
and dancing around my room
because that's what i do on my off days.
i don't know about you.
no, i don't know you.

hello, how are you?



(written in under a minute.)

2blogs1day

i'm making plans.
i'm in the process.
expect more changes.
i'm going back to the days
when there were more sober septembers
than thirsty thursdays in my week.
it's for the best.

i want someone to come over
and teach me some chords
so i can string together more songs
about boys, bikes, and broken hearts.
i want to play them in your company
and i want what you hear to be something
worth listening to.

i want to get my ocean tattooed on my arm finally
and i want to start carrying around a journal again.
suggest some new books for me to read
i want to be entralled.
captivate me. motivate me. inspire me.


there used to be so much more to all of this
and now i feel like i've been spending all this time
just waiting for things to get better.

i need to start talking.
i need a best friend.



don't misinterpret these plans/wants/needs
no one said i was frowning.

radio oidar

who says girls in glasses can't have any fun?
i've been pretty useless all day.
unmotivated. boring. lazy. & secluded.
last day of spring break.
my car got towed last night and so now i'm working like
15 shifts next week.
back to reality
and really getting down to business.
i may start looking for a second job
and i really need to determine what my major is gonna be.

fuuuuuck.

hey, im in vegas

all the female bartenders are trying to get me loose as a goose. went to pure last night and danced on the outdoor patio/roof at ceasars until I couldn't stand. im typing on my sidekick right now loving all the hot foreign men.

more later.
bottom line ... im in vegas and this shit is b nuts.

Xoxo

i wish i spoke more french

if i have one more god damn
dream about you
i am NEVER going to sleep again.

i really wish i didn't pick up
a shift tonight
cos i'd rather be doing 444553429 things
instead of serving people tortilla soup
and stocking glasses.

i'm watching amelie
and pretending i don't need to be
getting ready for another productive
day at my job.

eg is trying to get me to go to peabodies
tonight.
jesus.
peabodies.
really?
i bet mikey would be thrilled. (<3)

i'm off all day tomorrow
so if you want to see me before
i leave for the week.
let me know.

and since everyone keeps
talking about all the recent plane crashes
i have decided to make peace with everyone
before i depart.
because hey,
if i never come back
i want you to know that i love you.
and you. and you and you.

my back hurts.

i look pretty good right now.
i've been taking zicam like it's necessary
since i'm the only person
who avoids the sickness going around
until four days before they change coasts.
i'm listening to hilary duff
waiting for mr.smooth to come scoop me up.
the only picture i'm in from fan plan 2.5
i'm making a :( face.

awesome.!

i need to get out more
because i've started listening to what people say
and i've tripped, and fell,
and now i've got a crush on you.
and it's a wam bam thank you mam
kind of day.


i wish i had more $$ today.
instead i just keep spending like i have no sense.

on the internets

...a photobooth picture turned on it's side
with a caption that read,
"this girl has messed me up sideways"
and i think it's one of the most
romantic things i have ever heard.

needless to say,
i'm quite jealous.

it's 12:51am
and i forgot my favorite show was on.
they say it's going to get in the teens tonight
and i really hope this cough i have isn't staying around.

i've been okay.
in case you're wondering.

i haven't listened to this cd in years
and i can say, with full honesty,
that i've been thinking about your more this winter
than i have in five.
i think the main reason i've avoided these songs
is the same reason that you were the last
good thing i can remember.
it's cold outside and i hate the fact
that i'm stuck in doors thinking about
all the possibilites of you.
you don't really exist if you're not here.
i hope you're okay
cos i have been wondering.
maybe you were my first love.
i don't even know what that means.

and she said i shouldn't be so pessimistic about love
but i don't believe anymore.

somewhere along the lines i got lost.
now i'm just trying to find my way back.
i am constantly surrouned by people
but i don't even know how to talk
unless it's about bullshit.
like this entire post.
except not.

i miss you.

and you might think you know who i'm talking about
but i can assure you it's not him.
this goes back farther than that.

i think this vacation is coming at a perfect time.