you got another thing coming.

so today while going to farm fresh to purchase
my bottle of sparkling pear juice (mighty delicious i might add)
a group of boys yelled,
"girl i ain't never seen an ass like that".
is that lyrics from an eminem song?
god i hope so.

it's officially been 14 days.
i feel like i have more fans now that i don't drink.
has it sorted out all my problems?
no, not really.
i'm probably more lonely than ever
but finding other ways to deal with it.
i broke down in my manager's office the other day
to the point i started shaking.
and i don't ever consciously do things like that.
i really needed a friend
but i didn't know who i could talk.
and not really a friend just someone i could sit with
and hug and cry on a little and not feel awkward with.
it'll come with time.
i don't know how to relate to many people.
but i guess that's okay. i feel pretty grown up.
aside from vegas i may not drink anymore period.
i like this me.